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WHAT?!

2012-01-16T07:56:00.001-08:00

Ok, nothing really has changed in my diet, but I'm up to 207!!!! AHHH!!!!! I DO NOT want to break 212...which was my weight with Pearce. I have been going to the gym a few times a week and stilled doing volleyball twice a week, but I think I need to cut back more calories. I REALLY don't want a baby above 10lbs. ugh!
Goal for the week. Gym 3x, volleyball 2x, a nice long walk, no eating anything except grapenuts after 6pm and down one pound!

ugh, failed!

2012-01-03T15:58:00.000-08:00

So my goal was to not hit 200 till Feb...I hit 200 Christmas weekend...and am already at 205. needless to say, I'm doing a cleanse to get all the holiday junk out and hopefully maintain for at least a month.

30 weeks

2011-12-17T18:13:00.000-08:00

Ok, last week I went in and I was 199, boo! BOO! I'm sure I'm at 200 now, but I'm not getting on the scale till I've had 3 good diet days in a row. So this week, it WILL happen! Not today, probably not tomorrow, but Mon-Wed will be AWESOME! This week has sucked probably worse than any week EVER...EVER!!!!!! And I'm for sure a stress eater, but things sucked so bad for two days of this week that I couldn't even eat. So I did some stress eating, right into not eating, now back to stress eating, and holiday eating, ugh! Lovely. Tis the season!

Pregnant....AGAIN!

2011-12-02T08:12:00.000-08:00

Alright, I totally forgot about this blog til this last week week when I went to the dr and found out I'm at 195! And I'm only 27 weeks!!!!!! I hit 230 with Jaden, 255 with Kamryn, 230 with Boston and 219 with Pearce....I wanna stay lower this go. I've been at 195 for a month now. I've been trying to keep it around 2000 calories (OB said 2200 is what I should be eating to not gain too much weight) and I do 2 pregnancy work outs a day, a card and a toning, and play volleyball twice a week. I know this is nothing compared to the awesome turbo jammer I was with Pearcen, but I slacked off completely for 4 months of this, so I've gotta work my way back up. Goal, 195 at the new year still. ugh! Then only 10lbs for the last 10 months. It has been fun not worrying about what I eat, and not working out when I'm tired, but also, it's felt so good to be working out again.

Daily Goals:
TONS of water
One sugary treat (holidays, come on!)
lots of morning protien
no eating after SEVEN!
2 veggies for dinner.

It's fine, whatever

2011-01-24T12:26:00.000-08:00

Ok, so I worked so hard today to get to 158...didn't eat til 2, did a whole boot camp hour work out, turbo jam 20 minute workout, extra tricep dips and jumping jacks, vacumed the house, cleaned the bathrooms, pooped, got naked, and still only got to 159. ugh!
I deserve it though. I had 3 slices of veggie pizza on Friday night..>THREE! yup, it had dairy..and YUP I didn't poop the next day.
And then Saturday, chipotle....it was all good stuff on the inside, I got the chicken fajita, no rice, no cheese, no sour cream, extra veggies and lttuce, but yup, I ate the tortilla...and I ate the WHOLE THING!
Whatever. It was soo freaking good and I haven' thad chipotle in about a year, so suck it scale...SUCK IT!

Next monday....156!!!!!!!

Come back...

2011-01-17T10:13:00.000-08:00

This week I did good as far as health diet, but as far as weight loss diet, not so great.... a lot of natural nut butter, raw honey and I even ate some homemade bread, which I was supposed to cut out this last week. So needless to say, I felt great, but the scales were up to 165 on Saturday...which freaked me out. I think I need to start weighing in everyday. But it helped me to do good on Saturday (other than the cookies I made for my sunday school class...I ate 3...first sugar in 2 weeks...ugh!).

And luckily today I was able to get down to 160.8 for weigh in thanks to....

an hour of this video on Netflix...it was killer for me. It didnt' leave me sore, but it left my sweaty

and a whole Sunday of apples

and pep talks throughout the week of why we hate to be fat with my friend Mel. Everytime we chat, I we talk about everything, and then end up talking about crap that we ate that we hate, or how much we wanna get cute skinny clothes, and it motivates me for an hour or so. Luckily we talk about everyday. We shoudl be skyping every few hours though haha.

This is her before she got pregnant and I was pregnant at the time and I hated her because I sent her that adorable dress for her birthday and it was a size SMALL!!!!! (plus her boobs didn't fade like mine when I lose weight...boo!)

HERE IT IS!

2011-01-10T13:08:00.000-08:00

Ok, so everytime I get serious about losing weight, I pick out an outfit, either something sexy or something just to wear. This time, it's to wear, and I tore it outta my magazine last week, and you might think it's boring...but that's because you do'nt have a tall body with no boobs. I hafta make the legs seem longer, and hide the sagggage up top. So here's the outfit that Jase said he'll buy me when I hit my 150 goal. yay!!!!! (it's taped to my mirror)

1st week

2011-01-10T08:02:00.000-08:00

I wanted to lose a lot this week, mostly because I knew everyone else would, but my plan didn't work. I lost 3 pounds in the first 2 days. Then I didn't' weigh for 2 days, and when I did I was up those 3 pounds. I don't know how, my diet was the same all week, but I freaked, wraped myself in slim wrap and saran wrap and did some jillian workouts. And then as of saturday I was down 2 but I really wanted to be 160 by today. So yesterday I just did lots of apples, and a little soup and nothing after 4...and got down 2 more, but didn't reach my goal for the week. it's alright. I'll just get down to 158 next weigh in. I found a recent picture of me. Which is rare with this hair cut. I try to avoid cameras. But this was yesterday...for church...in my grandma shirt.

January 9th 2011 162lbs

The jeans...the magical jeans...

2011-01-04T13:11:00.000-08:00

Ok, just thought it'd help if I looked up pictures of me looking good in these size 29's...and it did help. I have this same crappy hair cut, but a big body. NOtice how less crappy the hair looks with that body? Yea, I want that. oh, another big motivator...one of my oldest friends by me int he brown....smaller than me now. She's done great this year...huge motivation.These are the same magical jeans....we were NOT in love in this picture, that's why I look mad. not in love in jamaica? you might ask...yea, it was a once only moment. Don't even remember what it was about...he was probably checkin out some hot jamaican chic.

PS, I want those boobs back too....which means just getting these back to that size to fit in that magical bra...and yes, all of my smaller clothes are MAGICAL!

So ready.....

2011-01-03T10:26:00.000-08:00

Ok, this is my year. Not to get back into my 6's (not even gunna try for that a agin till I'm done whipping kids out) but it's my hear to FEEL healthy. This past year I have felt 60. My shoulders and knees have ached....chronically, my heart has horrible palpitations and I'm going bald. I know the heart thing and aches are from my intense sugar intake the last few months, and my bald thing is from my colon health. So I'm doing an anti inflammatory diet and hopefully a great colon cleanse in a few weeks to help start over with a healthy body, which will hopefully lmake it easier to lose weight (TMI...I'm back to only pooping every 4-5 days...imagine the toxins...I figured as of last night, I had 13 meals and 7 apples in me...along with lots of other stuff). yea, it grosses me out, sO i'm doing things this year. I'm even letting Jase do acupuncture on me every Monday, and adjust me 3x a week. I'm also doing foot zoning, but only ever other week, and I'll hopefully start the allergy treatments this week. I wanna do it all!!! The sugar heart thing has been double diagnosed (and I'm a 3rd because what I've been told is all true about it) is just an allergic reaction to sugar....and I'm believing as well as Jase, that my colon thing is a dairy allergy. We have 2 kids that are slightly lactose intolerant..Kam does ok with it now, but when she was younger it was bad, and if she over does it now, she shows symptoms, but I ' m hoping that going off dairy will help get things moving.

For now, here's my motivation to lose weight...my favorite pair of size 29's that USED TO look amazing on me, and I felt sooo tall and thin when I wore them...this is how they look now...

stupid blogger

2010-10-12T09:29:00.003-07:00

Ok, I've postd yesterdays food log twice, and it's not posting! ugh

Ok, I had plain oatmeal 2

8 multi grain pringles 1.5

10 candy corn 1.5

8 more multi grain pringles 1.5

sandwich - 5

eva's - 15

SO I went over by a couple...not too bad

Today so far

Egg Whites with pepper, mozzerella and zuchinni 3

then ran 3 miles! Ok, walked 1, but ran 2!!! Now I'll be sitting on my butt editting and quilting!

ok, so I did sit and quilt and edit, but I stuck with my points.

I was eatting those pumpkin candy corn things and I thought they counted the same as the candy corn...nope! Not even close, so I thought I had 1.5 points worth, but it was really 4 points worth. And a point and a half of pear with WW cream cheese, an english muffin with fake buter and cinnamon, 0pt WW soup with 1 pt of parmesean cheese, salad with 1 pt dressing and 1 pt avacado, a 5 pt frozen WW meal and 2 points of popcorn. So that's 21 right? I did drop 2lbs, so I lost a point. yay! and boo! So I'm going to try and eat 20 points now.

Aww crap!

2010-06-25T12:38:00.000-07:00

Ok, so I was planning on losing the last 8 in the next 2 and a half weeks for Apsen Grove...which seemed somewhat do able, but um, my friend who is my favorite photograher ever just told me 2 days ago that she's coming....YAY!!!! So now I have one week and one day to lose the last 8....sounds WAY less doable! But I'm going to work hard this week and hopefully get under 155 for next Saturday's family pictures. We've NEVER had our pictures done by a professional photograher, and probably won't again for a long time, so I've gotta make it count! Plus, I'm still holding onto the 150=killer short cute hair cute, which I want really soon!!!!

For now, here's a picture of me by my photograher friend (Meslissa Fullmer) at 160 (last week...blah)

My befores....

2010-06-11T08:49:00.000-07:00

Ok, I agree 400% with Lanae, taking before and after pictures helps so much. I DO NOT want to look like this in a few weeks!!!!!! Here are the parts I want to work on....
My biggest least favorite part is obviously my muffin top. I just hate it when I put on my jeans. It's so gross. I've gotta get off the sugar....but not today...HAPPY BIRTHDAY ME!!!!!

GOTTA DO IT!

2010-06-04T18:26:00.000-07:00

ok, so I just got a cute new swim top and parts of me are overflowing in it, so my goal is to look good in it and I think this last 10 will do that. But this last 10 I've been messing with for SIX MONTHS! But it's summer now, lots of trip, which means lots of pictures, so it's go time!

(how many times in the last 3 yaers on this blog have I said, "it's go time"????)

SOO stinkin close....

2010-05-28T10:22:00.000-07:00

alright, I didn't hit the 150 I wanted to, but I'm not going to complain since I only dieted about a week of this challenge. I'm kinda doing weight watchers again as of Monday. I just try to stay between 17-22 points, I dont' keep track, I just know which foods are low and how much of each I should be able to have, seems to work alright, so i think I'll stick with it til I get to 150...whcih I WILL before my Dallas trip. But here are my afters....um, I just got back from swimming, that's why my hair is gross...

Just a little personal best...

2010-05-27T06:51:00.000-07:00

Ok, so usually I swim any where from a mile to a mile and a quarter every morning...this mornign I swam over 50 laps!!! WOO HOO!! I've been sore all week in my shoulders and back, and i'm sure tomorrow I'll be dead. So I'm ditching my weights workout today and going to try and walk at least 5 miles. i still have 3lbs I want to lose before the final weigh in...fruits, veggies and walking all day!

Um, and yea, that's really me in the picture....I WISH! Cute red cap with matchy suit.

yay!!!! outta the 160'

2010-05-14T09:50:00.000-07:00

Ok, last week I hit 159, but didn't count it cause it was 159.5 and it was after working out, completelly naked and not eatting til noon. But yay! Here it is 9:30am (I did work out, and weighed ALMOST naked) but 158! yay! Still WAY behind my goals, but not too bad for not following a diet. Hopefully as soon as the wedding shiz is all over I can get back on weight watchers and get the rest of this junk off. Now I've gotta tone some things up these next 2 weeks for my after pictures...blah!

what the?!

2010-05-07T14:05:00.000-07:00

Um, ok, so I had no idea that I was even in the running for 1st place, but as of right now I'm in first? WHAT?! With 10lbs?! what?! Ok, so this is totally motivating to get to my goal. I want to start doing 3lbs a week for the rest of the weeks. I WILL DO IT! I'm still super unhappy with my belly, and still in size 10's....8's are too tight...they button and zip, and I can breath, but the muffin top is AMAZING with them. So I KNOW this last 10 will get rid of the muffin top. This is the only pic I have from the last few weeks....at the new temple in the Gila Valley. My arm takes up half the picture...blah!Goals for this week: Keep doing Fruit/Veggie day twice a week with Lissy, no sugar day on Monday and NO EATTING AFTER 6!!! GOT IT KRISTAL....NO EATTING AFTER 6!!!! (I really suck at this rule, but know it works)

What's up 160'2?????!!!!!

2010-04-30T09:39:00.000-07:00

We went to Roosevelt with some friends 2 weeks ago and I was nervous to get in my swimming suit in front of them...and for good reason. There were many pictures taken of me...this is the only one I posted on my blog.....

because the rest looked like this.....

Ug, I've gotta lay off the sugar! Seriously I've got the biggest belly of anyone I know! And for some reason my body likes the 160's. I've gotta do something major this week to get it to drop. I'm shooting for 158 next week. haha. Ok, ok, 159.

162!

2010-04-16T08:54:00.000-07:00

Um, so this was my period week, and I ate a lot of sugar. I didn't eat a lot of food this week, but when I did, it was something with sugar. So hopefully now that that week is out of the way I can get back to healthy. But yay! i hit my goal for the week. Now I want to lose 2lbs every week for the rest of the challenge. Swimming is helping a TON. I've never swam for exercise, but I"M LOVING IT! I do half a mile every morning then ab moves then I come home and do a workout video or go to the church and do zumba. i love it! If I can hit 160 next week, I'm pullin out the ole size 8 box! woo hoo!!!!!
No pictures to post, but after the lake trip tomarrow I'm sure I'll have a few motivating pictures...ugh!

Summer is TOO close....

2010-04-14T06:33:00.000-07:00

Alright, I've been doing morning swim for the lsat 2 weeks and I wore this same suit this morning....didn't look like that on me. Just this last 10lbs makes a HUGE difference with me. This pic was me at 155. I felt comfortable being in pictures next to my husband at that weight.

I really need to be at 155 by May 15th. and 150 by May 22nd. Ugh, I know my problem....eatting after 5. The days I do good the numbers go down, the days I eat after 5, I stay the same.

YAY!

2010-04-09T11:05:00.000-07:00

Ok, I was freaking worried, because as of Tuesday I was already at 166, then yesterday back to 168, then last night 170! So of coarse I didn't eat this morning and did my last chance workout, and wahbam! Got back to 166. I'm REALLY hoping for a bigger number next week. I only pooped ONCE this week, which of coarse, as you know, doesn't help with weight loss. I figured I have over 15 FULL meals in me right now with this weigh in. So, hopefully my chirorpactor can get thigns going again and I can hit my goal. I'd like to be at 162 by next friday, shouldn't be too hard. I don't have a whole lot planned that will mess up my diet...other than the Sandersons are coming over for homemade ice cream with their fresh cream....I'll save all my points for it. I want to swim 4-5x a week, zumba 6x a week, 4 ab workouts a week and try to go on a walk everyday...which will probalby end up being once or twice a week. haha.

Go time!

2010-04-06T15:56:00.000-07:00

So it's always motivating to look up my favorite model....Miss Latetia. I haven't seen her in anything for, um about 10 years, but she used to be my favorite VS model. I wanted to be her! I once tricked some guys into thinking I was her. I flashed them a quick picture of her and said it was me...they beleived me. Of coarse now, I'm saggy, wrinkley, bald and well, chubby, but I want to be back to less saggy and less chubby...and hopefully less bald. Seems like everytime I lose my weight I chop my hair...I'm keeping it long til I get into 8's! ANyway, here are my motivating pictures of the week....

The above picture is Latetia a couple of years ago...yea chubby! And below is her this last year...seriously looking better THAN EVER!

And this was her pregnant a couple of years ago....don't like the blonde, but um, she's adorable....hpefully my next pregnancy can be more like this...haha.

I used to have this picture taped on my wall in college for motivation.

I wanna get skinny and take a hot picture in sexy shorts like this and sneak it in Jase's wallet or something. I love this pic.

To get me there 1-3 workout videos a day, or a video and a walk

staying under 20 points a day

not eatting after 5pm

not sitting at the computer for so stinking long!

amazingly depressed....

2010-04-02T08:20:00.000-07:00

Ok, this picture makes me wanna cry...for obvious reasons But it's super super motivating. I've eatten worse than I have in YEARS this last month since the last challenge...and it defaintely paid off. GROSS!!!! I'm sooo glad today is finally here to change things. Can't wait! My goal is 150 by the end of the challenge, and I wanna stay at 150 through the summer...that puts me at a size 8, which is as small as I ever wanna be again.

(ps, the bruise is from sleep walking and running into a table a week ago)

Bikini Challenge

2010-03-26T08:22:00.000-07:00

Ok, since this is the swimming suit challenge, you know I have to post a gross picture of me in a swimming suit. ug! It's my best motivation, so I must do it. I'll take it this weekend while we're at roosevelt. blah! I HATE being in charge of these challenges, but realized no one else was going to do it, and since well, I have so much time on my hands with all this wedding stuff, 4 little kids, a part time job with my husband's clinic and a few trips, I figured I'd do it. So yay! I have 8 weeks until my neices wedding. I CAN NOT be the largest sister there. I was the largest for the last 2 weddings. NOT FUN! That's my #1 motivation. #2...we've been planning this amazing trip to Aspen Grove...the Family Camp for 2 years now, and I've known the whole time that it's in July and that I'll be getting in a swimming suit...but not until this last week did I realize that my cousin's wife that I'm going with is um, about half my size and looks fantatstic in a swimming suit...me...not so much! ugh!
So here goes! I'm starting today...I can't wait until Monday.

20lbs down...10 to go.

2010-03-01T13:37:00.000-08:00

Alright, so I thought I did good, but not good enough. It was a good competition this time though...great motivation! I loved it! I went down about 2 sizes. I can now fit into my goal size, but i want to fit into them comfortably, so I'm going to keep going. And obviouslyi from these pictures I still need to tone. I wanna wait til I hit 150, then start toning. My arms and spare tire gag me! But here are my afters. Oh, and it was a rough morning...obviously from my big smile and lack of shower. But let's just focus on the weight loss. yay!!!! Size 8....still too tight...but again..yay!!!!

This was the only picture I could find from right before the compeition. size 12.

Can't wait for the next competition. Hopefully I don't pack on too much before then! haha

FINAL WEEK!

2010-02-22T12:38:00.000-08:00

Ok, so this is the last week...and I'm 11 pounds off of my final weight goal. I'm hoping to drop about 7 or 8 this week. I know I can do it. I haven't been working out much the last week or 2 because of the cleanse, but I'm going to do 1-3 videos a day this week to keep myself in the runnings. I'll post an after pic next week...for now this is the only set of pictures I have from this month of me.....

Day 11

2010-02-19T14:57:00.000-08:00

Ok, so today is the day that I am allowed to throw some salmon or chicken into the mix...but I think I'll hold off another day or two...I don't feel like my digestive tract is fully cleansed...or even enough to throw meat in there. But just knowing I'm halfway done...yay!!!! I haven't lost as much weight as I did the first time I did this cleanse, but I started about 25lbs bigger last time. This is just fruits and veggies, but still quite a bit of calories...just healthier. Anyway, I'm hoping to drop another 6-8 in the next 2 weeks. We'll see.

1 week down 2 to go!

2010-02-15T07:10:00.001-08:00

Ok, this first week was frustrating. I stuck to the cleanse exactly and didn' thave my detox day like I usually do. Last time I did this one it was as early as day 3. but this time...nothing, and then nothing...and I only lost 1 pound and I was frustrated...til yesterday
Yesterday I got a horrible headache, sweating, and completely weak! And bam 3 more lbs! I woke up feeling fantastic too, so it's all uphill from here. I love cleanses!!!!!

An Obvious Pleatue

2010-02-09T06:58:00.000-08:00

Alright, so with the sissy numbers I've been pulling, obviously I'm at a pleatue...my body always sticks around 169 because that's what i was for years before having babies and then again after Kamryn for 3 years. Well, even after boston for a year. So it's where my body is used to being...but I'm NOT loving it. So I started the SP 21 day purification cleanse. I did it once after boston to kick start my weigh tloss. I LOVE IT! It's fruits and veggies (2x as many veggies and 1/2 raw) and 2 shakes and 30 purification pills a day. It's not too hard. I'm sure it'll be hard when we go somewhere, like I'm in charge of stinking enrichment tonight and they are serving lasagna, garlic bread, salad, chocolate fountain with fruit. At least I can have salad and fruit and I'll down a shake before I got...but valentines weeken dis going to suck. Anyway, I know why I didn't lose a pound this week...we had a HUGE super bowl party and I ate whatever, and then we had bunco and I ate whatever. it was fun, but glad I'm getting it completely out of my system now. I actually weighed 165 this morning, so the cleanse is helping with weigh tloss already. yay! Now off to start day 2 of 21!

gotta ways to go...

2010-02-02T12:22:00.000-08:00

So today I went through my old skinny clothes. Some of them actually fit, but way way way too tight to breath. And then I found my beloved denim jacket. I LOVE IT! and I bought it right before I got fat last year, so I only got to wear it a couple of times before I got huge and pregnant. I decided to be brave and try it on....

That's as close as I could get to buttoning it...ugh! (dont' look at my saddlebags...I'm working on them too) I freaking LOVE this jacket though, and I REALLY REALLY want to be able to wear it for my birthday in June. The sad part...it took me much longer to get it off then it did to get it on...it was stuck on my fat arms...I honestly got worried that I was stuck in it and that I'd have to call my mom to come down and help me get out....sad.

SOON THOUGH...soon, I"ll be wearing it comfortably! (i hope)

Still behind, but I'll take it!

2010-01-25T10:37:00.000-08:00

Alright, so I'm down 32 pounds since October and 52 since September 29th (lost 20 instantly when I had the kid). Only 17 to go!

I was hoping to be at 164 by today (in my original goal plan) but after last week's crappy weigh in I hoped for 166 this week, so I'm not TOO far behind. I really don't know why I didn't lose more this week. I stuck to weight watchers points and worked out 1-3x a day again, and didn't lose anything til today. And even oday I woke up at 169 and didn't eat (still haven't) and did 3 workouts and 6 games of volleyball to get to 167.5....ug! I'm hoping it's my hormones finally balancing out after baby. I am done nursing, so I think my cycle is starting again. This next week I wanna get to 164!

Confidence (amoung many other things)

2010-01-18T12:53:00.000-08:00

I wanna lose this weight to have confidence. To not find someone or something to hide behind in pictures. To not constantly be thinking about my rolls and sags when I'm hanging out with friends or Jase. My goal for the week was at least 168, which I thought I could do easily, and I worked hard, only went over my points one day did 1-3 hours of workouts everyday (except sunday...but still went on a walk). I'm hoping it was the 2nd week curse (biggest loser show term). And this week I have to be to 165!!!!!! then only 5 more lbs to get me into my 10's that I love so much!!! The picture above is a size 10...it was when I was gaining my weight back from getting into 6's...but I still had confidence, so I REALLY want to be size 10!

#1 most disgusting, motivating, sickening thing...

2010-01-13T06:38:00.001-08:00

Ok, so like a lot of us, my least favorite thing about my body is my stomach. I have jiggly thighs, a saggy butt and boobs, and my arms shake for a while after I'm done waving, but my #1 grossest part of my body is my gutt! Everytime I walk by the big mirror in our living room I notice it and how it protrudes. Makes me stop whatever I'm doing, put on one of my ab workouts and get it over with...yet it still sticks out. I remember last year, when I finally had it flat and firm, I looked back at how I never missed an ab workout and I was hardly eatting, let alone eatting sugar. So this picture is to remind me of the way I ate and worked out...I know, it's still pretty gross because of the many huge babies I've had, but that's as good as it's ever g oing to get for me....so it IS my motivation.....

GOTTA GET OUTTA HERE!!!

2010-01-11T11:02:00.001-08:00

The 170's are bugging me!I've been jumping around in them for over a month now...I want out! My goal is to drop 5. I wanna be at 167 for next weeks weigh in...and then I can get back to my usual 2-3lbs a week. I lost 5lbs on Tuesday this last time, th en gaine da couple back...stayed at 174 for a couple of days and then thank goodness today, got to 172. Still chubby, still workin hard!

#1 motivating picture

2010-01-10T12:39:00.000-08:00

Ok, our screen saver just brings up random pictures on our computer and anytime this picture comes up, I wanna cry. This isn't me at my smallest, but it's me at my happiest. I was a size 8 jeans, size s shirt, and my belt is one that I now wear on my waist over cardigans...ug! I'll probably post this picture every week to keep me going. Mmm, I miss those jeans with those cheetah wedges. SOON!!!! I want to wear this same outfit and have long hair...that's my goal this year. Everytime I get skinny I chop my hair..stupid! I wanna be skinny with long hair for once!

SO MOTIVATING!!!

2010-01-05T14:12:00.000-08:00

Alright, we had family pictures this weekend, and for 2 months my only goal was to be a size 10 for them....I didn't make it, but now I get to use them as motivational picture. I HATE being so chubby by my fit husband. blah!Me and my sisters

NOOO!!

2010-01-04T20:26:00.000-08:00

Ok, so I put 176, because that's what I weighed when we left for the weekend in the valley and I didn't think I'd make it back in time to weigh in, but looky here, I'm home, with my scale and I'm at 179...up 9 WHOLE HUGE pounds in 2 weeks. GAG! This is soo on though! SO ON! And I'll show you why tomarrow when I post a picture of what I looked like this weekend in family picture...blah! But for now a picture of me a year and 4 months ago at my goal size.....

Size 12 is NOT my favorite!!!

2009-12-28T20:22:00.000-08:00

Even though I usually don't get into a size 12 until my babies are about 9 months and I did it this time by 2 and a half months, I DO NOT like size 12. I feel so frumpy and don't like wearing jeans. I have taken off these 2 weeks....and taken them off BIG TIME from weight watchers and I'm up 4lbs! I'm HOPING to get back on it tomarrow so that my starting weight on Monday will be the same as my endin weight from this last challenge. I've been trying to NOT be in pictures, but with my son's baptism and baby's blessing I had to be in a few...but my computer isn' tworking, so I'm using my dad's and this is the only picture of me that I could find in a size 12...this was 2 years ago at my 10 year reunion...blah! I hate it! I didnt' hit my goal of size 10 by Christmas either. But I'm STILL goin to shoot for size 8 by Valentines. My new motivation is my $90 number from Victoria's secret in combination with the surprise trip to Vegas I have planned for Jase and I for Valentines. Gotta do it!

woo hoo!!!

2009-12-14T07:10:00.000-08:00

YAY! Even though 170 is still a gross weight. I'm sooo excited to be here alreadyt hough. I usually stay around 190 for the first 6 months of having a baby, so this is good. I had a fantastic week. I freaked out because as of Friday I was still at 174 and I was hardly eatting, but I guess it all came out in the wash. I was 171 this morning and I finally pooped ( I only do once a week) and it took me down to 170...gross I know, but yay!!!!!! This pictures still make me wanna cry and not eat all day, but at least I don't look so pregnant...just saggy and stretchy, blah!
Can't wait to drop the last 20 in the Jan challenge!!!!!

I took these right after I weighed in this morning.

NEW MOTIVATION!!!!!

2009-12-07T11:08:00.000-08:00

My sister just called me and said that we're doing family pictures this year....it's been 2 years and I was size 14 for the last pictures while all of my sisters were at their smallest. My goal this time...to be the smallest, which means I have to get into size 10 by the new year!!!! I'm in a tight 12 right now so it'll be work. but looking at these pictures motivates me!!!!

5lbs a week for 3 weeks...I can do it!!!!

(I hope)

Overdid it!

2009-12-07T06:49:00.001-08:00

My goal for this weigh in was 177, and I hit 175...yay! So my goal for next Monday, instead of 174 is 170. So hopefully by CHristmas I can hit 165...which puts me into size 10...yay! Anyway, just for now I'm shooting for 170 for my final weight. And I think it should be easy since I have another week exactly like last week, tons of kid's stuff, tons of stuff to do for the new house and packing...which leaves no time for eatting again...yay! And this is TMI, but I didn't poop all week. so hopefully I will this week, and well, that always helps with weight loss. haha! Anyway...yay!!! I liked this weigh in!

SO motivated.....

2009-12-02T06:11:00.000-08:00

So I fit into size 12's before thanksgiving and I took our family pictures in the same 12's on Saturday and I looked like a stuffed sausage...IN TWELVES! So I'm done messin around. I've already lost the 2lbs I gained over Thanksgiving, and I'm going to lose at least 3 more before weigh in...and another 5 before the end. I can't stand my size 14 pants, and my 12's aren't too much better, my 10's are MY FAVS! This picture below is my favorite pair of size 8's from just 15 months ago...and my favorite shrug in a size S. I'm a size XL top right now...blah! This is me in a size 16 about 3 years ago....this is my #1 motivation to get this weight off. My head looks soo little. haha!

YAY!!!

2009-11-23T07:37:00.000-08:00

I didn't think I'd really hit my goal of 179 this week...but I DID!! yay. Even though the 170's is still higher than I started our first biggest loser last year, I'm soo glad I'm out of the 180's. With my 2nd and 3rd pregnancy my happy day was when I finally hit 169. That's as low as I got before Boston, and as low as I got after boston until last spring...when he turned 2. So I'm ahead of where I usually am with a 2 month old, but still way over where I was this time last year...ug! but yay 179!!!!! My goal for next weigh in 178..weak, I know, but I LOVE THANKGIVING!!!!!

ug!

2009-11-16T10:16:00.000-08:00

I have no patience for weight loss...especially when I fall behind my goals. I wanted to be 177 this week...it's written on my calendar! blah! It's really sad too that I would LOVE to have my 18 weeks pregnant body back. I wear those jeans that I'm wearing in the 18 week picture up there, but that shirt looks like crap on me right now...big saggy boobs and saggy pregnant looking belly. My goal for next week... 177!

Freaking Weight Watchers!

2009-11-09T11:38:00.000-08:00

Ok, so I honestly did so great this week, I don't think I went over my 26 points a single day and I worked out 5 days...hard! What the heck?! I'm going down to 24 points this week, bettered help. My biggest problem is digestive...I only poop (TMI) once or twice a week, so how the heck am I supposed to lose weight with that?! But anytime I take my natural pills for it that I was on last year, my baby poops about 5x a day and I still only go every other day, so that's not worth it to me. ug! UG!!!! I wanted to be under 180 this week. I'm soo pissed off!!! Ok, 24 points bettered be my magic number for now!!!!

lazy butt....

2009-11-05T13:02:00.000-08:00

Ok, so I really don't feel that lazy. I feel like I get about 10 minutes 3 or 4 times a day to sit here and relax (yes, my down time is my computer time) and the rest of my time I'm doing workouts, cleaning messes, cooking, laundry, running up to see what's going on with our house, or some other motherly/wifely thing. But I've been sticking to my points and working out 1-2 hours a day and have NOT lost a pound this week! My abs have been killing, so I know the workouts are hard enough. I just don't get it. I'm supposed to be getting 36pts for nursing. But since I'm part time nursing (he has one formula bottle to every 3 of mine) I only gave myself 30 pts, and that helped with a few pounds, then it stopped, so I've gone down to 26pts which is what I'd get if I wasn't nursing at all, and still NOTHING. And seirously I don't go over it at all!!! I'm drinking TONS and TONS of water. I seriously don't get it! Hopefully it's my muscle being built back up. I'll give it 2 more weeks and if I'm not under 180, I'm....well, I don't know. Maybe I'll do the HGC thing against Jase's will.
My other problem is that I'm 20lbs less than I was when all the rest of my babies were 1 month so it's hard for me to not be content with that, but knowing that I'm still 20lbs bigger than my husband kills me. And my sister that has always been skinnier than me...especially after babies, just told me that she's still over 200 and her baby is only 2 weeks younger than mine. I liked it better when she was skinnier than me and I had to work hard to get skinnier than her! ug! Well, I just ordered soem more size M clothes from VS today, and theya re soo cute, so I'm sure that'll help, but if anyone has any WW tips..bring em on!

wow....

2009-11-02T08:30:00.000-08:00

I thought for sure I'd weigh the same...I did on Friday morning and Saturday from about 5pm on was NOT a good day. I must have done good enough yesterday. yay!! I'm still behind on my goals. I wanted to be 182 today. SO I'm a week behind. HOpefully I can weigh 182 next week for weigh in. This week, I'm going to keep turbo jam everyday and at least 3 walks this week, which will be easy because they are framing our house so we like to walk up and see it...it's only about a 2 mile walk. And I'm lowering my points by 2 because I haven't been exclusively nursing.

Stupid Snow...

2009-10-29T16:44:00.000-07:00

Ok, so Monday we woke up and our front yard was COVERED in beautiful yellow leaves...FALLL!!!
For the past 2 days we've woken up to TONS of snow....WINTER????
UG! I hate it, I'm too nervous to take my baby out for walks now. I heard it's supposed to warm up in a few days, but still, it'll be cold. ug! Guess I'm bound to my home and exercise videos for now.
As for diet....I've stuck with my points everyday so far, but friday and saturday are my killer days..especially with stupid halloween. So far I've done good. The kids had trunk or treat and I only ate a reeces PB cup last night (it served as dinner as well) and a mini 3 muskateer today...which is actually only half a point or something like that. Love 3 muskateers for that reason.

DID IT!

2009-10-27T07:45:00.000-07:00

Ok, so last night while my husband was asleep I placed a big ole VIctoria's Secret order for motivation. It worked for me last year, it bettered work again. I ordered a bunch of clothes and this: SEXY. I ordered it in 36C (I'm 38DD right now) and the matching hip huggers in size M (I'm an L right now). So hopefully it can be a little CHristmas something something. haha. I just told Jase this last week that I LOVE this set (it was on the cover of the catalog) and he said he did too....of coarse So he can't be mad that I just spent $90 on a tiny peice of clothing...right? Ok, I'm seirously nervous, but SOO motivated, and that's what counts.

Family Picture Time....

2009-10-26T10:53:00.000-07:00

Alright, so I did ok this week. The weekend ruined me. We went to my favorite Mexican resturant and I overdid the candy corns (which are good on WW for all of you WW girls...just not 40 of them like I did in one day). I'm hoping to be at 180 next Monday and then 2lbs a week for the rest of the year . Seems like a hefty goal, but I know I can do it. My motiation right now is familiy pictures. We only have 6 weeks til we're having them taken. And I'm just having my neice take them with my camera, but I've got adorable outfits for the whole family except me. I'm not buying mine til the week before and I'm hoping it will be a size 12 instead of the gross 16's I'm wearing now. So that's my current motivation. I started Turbo Jam today, hoping to do it at least 3x a week and still go on at least 3 walks a week. I can't believe how having this 4th kid ate up so much of my time. I'm lowering my WW points by 2 since I'm having to hand express rather than breastfeed for another week or two, hopefully that'll help too. And back to 2 meals and a shake a day, as well as two 1-3pt snacks a day. Hope I can stick to this plan.

VERY motivating Before shots....

2009-10-18T13:02:00.000-07:00

Ok, these gross me out. I knew I was big since my size 16's barely fit, but this, this is sad! I started out this pregnancy a size 8, that's 4 sizes up, and 5 sizes up from this time last year. ug! That's bad! I'm going to look at these pictures EVERYDAY, and I hung up a pair of size 8's that I bought when I was first pregnant that I never got to wear, in my kitchen. I love them. They are victoria secret's wide leg jeans and I LOVE THEM, I want to wear them soo badly. Ug, enjoy these gross pictures....

Oh and I didnt' realize they were overexposed til I got completely re dressed and uploaded them, not going through that again, especially since I only have a few more minutes to myself before Pearce wakes. But you can defaintely get the fat jist of it with these shots.

Time to Start ALLLLLL over again...

2009-10-14T08:45:00.000-07:00

alright, so last years challenges were AWESOME! I loved em. I got my last 20lbs off (and on, and off) and hit my goal of 105lbs lost....then I got pregnant in January and instantly packed on 30...and by the end it was 65lbs! I've got 30 off in the first 2 weeks (thanks to delivery and mastitis) but I know the last 35 won't be that easy...haha! So glad we're doing this again. Definately worth the weight gain, but dieting is always worth the weight loss....let's get started! For now I'm just doing WW. I get 30 pts because I'm so big and Im nursing. This week I've only been eatting about 20 because I've lost my appetite, but sadly I knwo it'll come back strong. Hopefully I can stick to my points. I'd like to start workign out in a couple of weeks if my boobs heal up, and I'll get back to turbo jam and hip hop abs...Love em! Hopeing my same ole routine will work for me again!
Good luck ladies!!!!

Wha?!

2009-04-24T05:57:00.000-07:00

Ok, so I do 2-3 videos a day, and not sissy ones, turbo jam, hip hop abs, and the sometimes I throw in a couple of Gabreille Reece's 15 minute pregnancy sessions. UGH! Ok, ok, I have to come clean about my diet...I did good for the first couple of weeks. But now, honestly I am hungry an hour after I eat. I it really frustratees me, and I tried to bear through it, but I get light headed, which I figure isn't good for me or this kid. So yea, I eat every couple of hours. And I LUCKILY crave healthy foods, but I eat a lot. Ok ok, I'll come clean about yesterday...I ate half a bag of these:

and the other half the day before. When they were gone, I finally looked at the label. haha! A serving is 6 chips. REALLY? not for me, it's more like 32 chips! UG! That's my goal for this week, is when I NEED to eat, stick to what the label says is a serving. Because other than these chips, I crave healthy stuff. Nuts, and fruit and WW soup, (wow that sounded like a poem). Anyway, that's my goal...and to not totally screw it up this weekend in Thatcher!

Depressing

2009-04-17T09:50:00.000-07:00

So i was hoping not to gain so much this time, but everything on me has already expanded A TON, and yes, I know it will because I'm pregnant, but I'm only 16 weeks! I shouldn't be this huge!
I'm still feeling good about my workouts, and I did turbo jam for the first time today and loved it...it freaking kicked my butt. But I'm going to switch off between a day of pilates/hip hop abs, and a day of turbo jam cardio/turbo jam sculpt. I like doing 2 a day because it keeps me off my butt during the time my kids are out. As for WW, I had a few crappy days, but still ate really healthy, just more than my pts. Today is great so far...of coarse it's only 10, but I'm only at 4pts (I give myself 22-24 a day) but we're having friends over for shishkabobs tonight. Wish me luck!
Oh, and that's a bikni bottom, not underwear...and yes, those are awesome stretch marks in both!

Ugh, and yay!!!

2009-04-10T05:40:00.000-07:00

Ok, so I broke 170 already, but I have to say I have been 171 for 2 weeks now, so I KNOW 100% this time that it's mucle, cause I'm back to 2 videos a day and Weight Watchers (with 3 extra points for baby). I feel great, and my 8's fit again (with the help of a bella band...I can zip them, just not button them). The baby is now the size of an apple (I've been told, so probably a grapefruit since it's mine) and I'm defaintely showing now.
My new goals are to stick with my 2 workouts a day. I do a pilates at 6am and a cardio (either hip hop abs, or turbo jam or salsa) at 2pm, then weights for about 20 minutes after that while I watch jon and kate plus 8. I'd also like to start walks and bike rides again now that the wheather has calmed down. And I DON"T WANT TO GET ABOVE 171! I'm obviously having a hard time getting under it, and don't think I'll be losing weight, but I feel good that I can stick close to 171 for another 2 months....hopefully. haha!

Goals...

2009-03-23T08:35:00.000-07:00

Ok, so I've gotta get myself back on a good diet. I've got the small ammount of energy I need to pull my butt off the couch for an hour or two a day, so I can get back to working out, but I've gotta get back to eatting good, and less.
WHen I was pregnant with Boston I wanted this shirt....

But we were too incredibly flat broke, so my goal, if I can stay under 170 through May, I'm getting it...if not, I'll have to wait til the next pregnancy. I know, 2 months to only gain 2lbs during the 2nd trimester...that seems IMPOSSIBLE to me, but I have to do it so I don't end up 255lbs at the end of this one again. This is a super crappy week to get started, but I'm going to try. It's spring break and we'll be on the road for most of it. But I can do it! My next goal will be for the killer diaper bag I want. If I can stay under 190 through August...haha, but who knows. THen I'm getting my dream diaper bag. And Jase told me if I deliver naturally he'll let me buy whatever crib and whatever crib bedding I want...not worth it! I'll reuse what I've got and he has to buy me a crib anyways, we're all out! UGH!! Can someone else please get pregnant!!!??

still stickin with it, but not competing....

2009-03-12T08:27:00.000-07:00

alright, so most of you already know...I'm knocked up, and was for the whole last challenge, but was hoping to lose my usual 10 during my first trimester, but instead I gained it! blah! So my new goal is to look this cute this summer..... I'm still doing weight watchers, and as soon as this stupid awful horrible morning sickness goes away I'm going to start walks, bike rides, and some aerobics again (nothing like I was doing last summer...haha). But I'm hoping to hit 159 again before I start gaining like crazy. I gained 75 with my first, 65 with my second, 55 with Boston and I'm hoping to gain between 35 and 40 with this one....from 160. So, we'll see... I defaintely don't want to break 200 again. Anyway, I'll probably still post sporatically on here to keep you all up to date with my weight gain...sadly, which hopeuflly won't be too much....and any help you have for me...bring it on! Good luck ladies, and can someone else get knocked up and fat with me...SOON?!

lazy girl

2009-02-13T07:49:00.000-08:00

ok, this week I started doing turbo jam again because we slacked off with p90x. But I'mjust into lazy right now. I know, bad, and it's totally catching up with me! I dont' wanna be chubby girl again. But seriously it's soo nice not to worry about everything that goes in my mouth. I still do one raw meal a day, I think I need to up it to 2 every other day though, plus I started WW TODAY, I know I said I was before, but I slacked off. I am journaling already. If I go up another lb next week, someone needs to come over and intervien! Seriously, Amy, you're the closest...come cut off my hands, or super glue my mouth shut or drag me from the back of your car making me run for a few miles. This is outta control. I had my first krispy kreme donut in 2 years...and yes, it turned into 4! The HSers here were selling them and I don't know why but my husband bought 2dz! I made him take the rest to work with him. But still...that and cold cereal are my vices, other than that I eat healthy, but my portions are working t heir ways back up to my old way. Today things are changing...that number on the scale freaked me out!

164!

2009-02-06T08:58:00.000-08:00

Ok, so obviously I have sucked this go round. I love that I have learned about RAW though, and am experiencing huge health benefits from it...but I think I still need to learn portion control. Because it is helping me in a lot of ways, but i just think that since I'm eatting RAW I can go crazy and eats 4 bananas, 3 apples, a head of cauliflower, a fruit veggie shake, another banana, 1/2 RAW cheese, and 2 avacados everyday...that's a ton of calories...a ton! So, when I start to care a little more about my big belly (the time will come...soon) hopefully I can reduce my portions of RAW> I've only been at about 50% RAW these past couple of days. Next week is my 100% week again though. We'll see if it helps. As far as exericse...um, hahaha, Don't wanna talk about it. REmember over the summer when I did 5-7 workouts a day? Well, half that, then half it again, and yes, one more time...I do about half a workout a day, then I get caught up in other things. I love having more to my life than diet and exercise, but on the other hand, when I'm not totally focused, I turn into chubby saggy girl. Glad I didn't put $$ in this time. haha!

good enough....

2009-02-03T16:49:00.000-08:00

Ok, so I'm doing about 90% RAW, I screwd it up on the weekend, but back to it again now and have honestly never felt better. My energy still isn't tip top, but that's probably because we haven't slept in forever, but as far as my #1 concern (which you all know what that is), I've never been this regular...well, not since the wreck 8 years ago, so I know this is what I need to be doing. My weight loss has stopped, but I'm ok with it. I'm not LOVING my body, but I'm not HATING it either. I'm sure some of you saw the latest on Jessica Simpson's weight gain. She's ok with it. She was a size 2 at her smallest, and she's a size 8 now...a size 8...I was a size 8 a month ago, and I'm about 7" taller, so I should defaintely be ok with a size 10, so I am. Thanks Jessica. now if I just had that hair, face and perky little twins. Aww well. Anyway, I'm going to keep doing the BL challenges though to stay below 165...tha's my, "I now hate my body" weight. and my "I lvoe my body" weight is 150 and lower, and my, "I'm ok with my body" weight is anywhere between the two. haha! Anyway, here's to you JS, and your sexy curves! (maybe try to dress differently for your new body type though...haha)

easy cheesy (with RAW cheese)

2009-01-23T06:07:00.000-08:00

So this RAW stuff is easy, I'm loving it. I'm running low on supplies today and yesterday but I'm stocking up this weekend in the valley. I don't notice a huge difference in the way I feel, except my eyes black out when I stand up first thing in the morning and I think that's because I do only fruit/veggies for dinner, no protien, so I'm going to start shoving nuts down as my night snack. SEe how that goes. But offically I'm only down a pound from my beginning weight...boo! So i'm still losing big time...glad I didn't put $$ in it this time..haha. But I'm loving the RAW.
P90X on the other hand is KILLING US! I started running this week with a friend ( we go everyday, and we eith erhave to run a mile or walk two), I've been soo sore that we have mostly walked. But it's been nice to get out and chit chat, hopefully the sore from the p90x won't be as bad during week 3. I love it though, I love that i hurt in all the right spots...except my lower abs, but I can tell they are shrinking again, so I can't complain. But my saddle bags and dumpy butt are soo sore. yay! Anyway, my 8's are still tight, so I'm sticking with the diet, but I think this week I'll add fish or eggs once a day, a small serving, and then keep going with the RAW. I just need more protien if I'm going to keep up the p90x. This weekend will be hard. we're giong to dinner with some friends tonight, I think I'll do ok as long as I bring some fruit. Then I'll have fruit in the morning for breakfast, which is always easy, lunch, I'm makign Jase take me to pita jungle for some RAW food (thanks staci), then dinner....oooh, dinner, we've got one dinner planned with HS friends, and one dinner planned with my family...one at 5:30 and one at 7:30. I'm having a salad at both, but I'm already planning on eatting whatever is on the salad...which I'm totally ok with because I haven't cheated at all. I thought I might have, but the almonds were raw! yay! So I told Jase to share a salad with me at both places...but Sunday, breakfast will be fine again, but my sisters have a big luncheon planned (my nephew is getting the priesthood), and that's the one meal that I'm really worried about. Hopefully we'll have a suburban FULL of produce from the day before so I can bring some in for myself. Wish me luck!

what got me going?

2009-01-22T08:29:00.000-08:00

I'm going to answer cicily's Q in a post. What got me initially motivated was knowing that I wasn't going ot get pregnant for a while. Between my other babies I stayed pretty much around 200 because I knew I wsa going to get pregnant again, but I knew I had a few years this time, so i decided to buckle down. Then I made it a competition with myself. Jase told me if I could do it we could go to Hawaii, which turne dinto Jamaica, and planning a vacation where you're in a swimming suit the whole time has got to be the #1 motivator IN THE WORLD. Anyway, now that I've been there, an dknow what it feels like, that is my #1 motivation. It's like Staci said, once you know what it feels like to be fit, when you lose it, it's hard, and you want it back even more. I loved going on runs/walks with my kids to the park almost everyday, now they're lucky if I go out back and jump a couple of times on the trampoline, and I like hiking with my husband which I have never liked and he loves and of coarse the selfish reasons of looking hot in jeans, looking decent in a swimming suit and having more confidence around girfriends...especially since I'm usually the biggest friend. So there are lots of reasons, but what got me started was knowing tha tI had time and the vacation. SEriously just plan something like Mexico, or San diego beach for 4 days...knowing that you'll be in a swimming suit helps so much...and I think it helped to buy a swimming suit in size M when I was between L and XL and trying it on every couple of weeks and taking pictures...it all helped me. I'm sure it's differente for everyone, but seeing pictures killed me! And then looking back on pictures of me in July and August is what is kickin my butt right now! This picture is my screen saver, and I'm orderin ga picture of it for my fridge. I used to use models on the fridge, but just knowing that I actually got to this size is even better motivation.

gotta make it happen...

2009-01-20T14:37:00.000-08:00

Ok, so seriously pretty much since my trip back in August, I just have lost my desire to keep losing weight, consequently, it's been going up...17lbs since Halloween to be exact. And I sadly still felt comfortable in my skin til about a month ago and now I feel like this.... Seriously, I know I'm not really this big, but when I sit down, that's how I feel, or when I button up my pants, or when someone takes a picture, or when I'm eatting with someone other than my family...that's how I feel. I just want to get rid of this stupid muffin top again. Hopefully this P90X works...it's killing us, and hopefully I can figure out this RAW shiz, because so far I'm LOVING it, and that's now how diets are supposed to be...haha! Anyway, glad we've got a good group this time. Let's hear more stories and see more pictures!!!!

Off to vegas...not good....

2009-01-14T09:35:00.000-08:00

I always eat too much in vegas...but luckily I walk too much too...and we're bringing our P90X with us and our little car TV and we're not going to miss a day! I really can't believe I'm up 4lbs! I'm sore every where, only had one bad day on WW and got my VS jeans in...they are both size 8..one fits fine, and the other cuts off all circulation...same brand. I hate that! But I'm keeping both of coarse, because the tight ones are my favorite, and they're going to fit within the next month! Is anyone else doing WW? PLEASE...ANYONE?!!!!

onemore thing...

2009-01-13T10:48:00.000-08:00

This week I'll be weighin in on Wed because we're headed to Vegas wed-sun.

Oh, and I'm in a biggest loser with my sisters and mom starting tomarrow. So I'm REALLY going to kick it up this go round. And my sisters might be commenting on my blog...don't worry, they don't have access to OUR main blog.

REAL before pictures

2009-01-13T10:33:00.000-08:00

Jase and I started P90X yesterday and they tell you HOW to take your before pictures. These are mine...front view (gross, notice the muffin top making it's way back...hense the sad face...but my least favorite thing about this picture, the sideboobs coming out the sides of my walmart sports bra...FYI, Size C and bigger needs to find sports bras somewhere besides Walmart) Side view...no, that's not a baby bump...it's a "I've been a sugar addict for the past 2 months" bump.

They wanted one of us flexing because in 90 days we're going to be muscle machines...that's right, muscle machines, don't make me mad, or it might be your life!...in 90 days. Oh, and yea, I'm not wearing make up and I didn't do my hair. It'll make the after pictures that much better. In fact, I could do an after picture today and it would already be better..haha!

This one makes me saddest. The muffin top is VERY noticable here and the dumpy butt is back. That's what I worked 2nd hardest on over the summer, and yea, it was nice and tight and up for a few months...first time in my LIFE...and now, it's back to dumpy!

Alright, and there you have the befores....watch out ya'll, it's gunna be amazing in 90 days!!! I can tell already because I can hardly move a muscle. P90X is the hardest workout I've ever done...EVER!!!

Oh, and I was tempted to post Jase's before's so you could see just how jack sprat and his wife we really are.

BEFORE SHOTS!

2009-01-08T14:25:00.000-08:00

Ok, I had to post this too...this is my motivating picture. I know you're all thinking, "yea right, she'll never get that skinny"...but that's the kind of things I wanna hear you say...it pushes me. Seriously, make fun of my dumpy butt and flabby gut. Do it!
Ok, so I didn't diet for all of this last challenge, and I worked out twice. haha! So, I started again on Monday...weight wtachers and turbo jam..P90X starts next monday as well as running. But just so you all remember, I was a size 6, and today I put on my favorite pair of jeans ever...and they're 12's, they used to fall right off, they hung onto my love handles. waaaahhh! Needless to say, I took them off right away and did 2 videos and it's almost 4 and I've only eatten 7pts. yay for fat jeans! I have 2 more pairs that will motivate me. Also these pants i'm wearing in the before picture are size S and look how they show every roll, they used to be soo cute on me.... But look in the background...my Self magazine, pull up bar and a collinder of red grapes (they fight fat) so yay!!! You girls bettered keep me motivated this go round! I've gotta get skinny so I can get pregnant SOON! Oh, and below is my extremly sad "I won't do my make up and hair and leave the house until I'm skinny" face.

There you have it. After pictures to be posted March 6th in a size 6 and 6 o'clock!

My offical first day....

2009-01-05T06:21:00.000-08:00

ALight, so I know it's not the first day of the year, but it's the first day of my diet. Starting WW again...with high protien, which is hard for me, but I did it before. And I'd love to start running today, but we've got TONS of snow (as I'm sure most of you do) and I haven't ordered my shes yet. but P90X is in the mail and should be here sometime this week, and my motivational clothes that I ordered will be here this week as well. But here's my goals:
21pts a day
no eatting after 6 except air popped popcorn
1 hour of workingout a day (for now)
no sugary snacks
We'll see how that goes. Um, and I obviously did way better with the Monday/Wed weigh ins...it makes me do better through the weekend. This way makes me feel like I've got the weekend to screw it all up, which is always easier to do on weekends with parties and trips and such, so that's going to be a huge challenge for me as well this go round.
Wish me luck! Oh, and when I get showered, I'm taking a before pic...blah, it's gotten bad ladies, prepare yourselves!

On a sidenote...

2008-12-30T07:17:00.000-08:00

I saw Amy at the movies last night and she is my new goal...especially with a 9 month old!

LIAR!!!

2008-12-30T06:58:00.000-08:00

Ok, so yes, I've been a little MIA...and Kelly you are soo FREAKING motivating. My goal is 150, and since you and I started at the same weight and you're freaking, WAY past 150, that's soo motivating. But seriously, I will never ever diet through the holidays. It takes too much away from it for me. I enjoy baking with my mom and daughter, and tasting all the goodies that the whole freaking little mormon town brings. And all the dinners and parties we go to. I jsut can't do it. So I haven't weighed in for, oh, about a month or a month and a half. Haha! I just figured I'd keep putting my starting weight, and as long as I really put my last REAL weight I'd be ok. This morning I just went to find my scales again (buried under our holiday boxes) and I'm at 162, fully dressed, and later in the day than usual, so I figured I'md oing pretty well. I started WW yesterday, and did great...finally! I am sticking to 20pts, which is 3 below what they really a lot me, but it worked last time to go a few below, so I'm doing it again. Anyway, can't wait for the next challenge to start, I'm coming in full force! I ordered a bunch of clothes from VS yesterday (I never let the semi annual sale pass me by) and I ordered these two pairs of pant in size 8, which I should have done 6 because I'm wearing VS jeans in size 8 right now and they fit perfect, although I have another pair of VS jeans size 8 that will barely button, and shove all of my fat roll above the pants when I wear th em, so hopefully these are both like that. But they were only $25 for a 34" inseam! I got another pair of sailor pants for $15 too! And of coarse SHIP09 gets you free shipping if anyoen else orders from them. Anyway, my goal is to have my jeans look as baggy on me as this chicks by Jan 15 (our annual vegas trip), another goal, to stick to WW strictly until we get to vegas, then to get right back on it when we get back. And Kelly, we are going to start running. Kirsten (from BL) and I are running a 5K in April..and yes, I know you run about 4 5K's everyday, but uh, I defaintely couldn't even run a 1K right now. haha!

(look how cute the weave pockets on these are)

chubby

2008-12-19T07:47:00.000-08:00

Ok, so I'm just glad I didn't gain. I had a sick day (first one in 3 years...I thought I was pregant or something, but n0) where I didn't eat anything, but just yesterday I had an in and out gorilla style burger and animal fries, and then for dinner 4 slices of surpreme pizza! HOLY CRAP! Anyway on an up note, I have only been allowing myself to taste one thing on the goodie plates we get, and let the kids and Jase choose one thing, then the chickens get the rest, hopefully I can keep doing that because that's what usually kills me every year. Jase is supposed to get his grubby little hands on a copy of P90X workout for us because we want to start that next week (we wanted to this week, but holy crap, crazy week...and I'm so sure next week will be better with the speech therapist familyi meeting, Jaden's huge pirate birthday and oh, Christmas and tons of family) but someday we'll start it...someday before the new year. Does anyone do it? All I"ve heard is it's killer, but amazing. I can't wait. I don't feel like I"ve lost much of my muscle, but I do feel like I'm starting to cover it with chubb again....so I'm going to start something, sometime. Wow, don't I sound motivated?! We're planning a trip though, because It old Jase that's what makes most of the girls that lose a lot of weigh lose weight...have you all noticed this? I lost for Jamaica, Sheree lost for the cruise, my other friend Sheree is losing like crazy for her cruise. So we're planning a trip to Maine for my 30th. I can't wait! Anyways, someone motivate me. Oh, and here's this year's family pic...the only one where someone isn't blinking, and it isn't blurry and Kamryn's not, well, pretty much flipping the camera off. She gets soo pissed off everytime the camera comes out...always has.

oh, and it looks grainy because our scanner sucks!

So unfreaking motivated!

2008-12-05T13:42:00.000-08:00

I really thought I'd be 165 this week, so I'm happy, but I just don't care. I ahve to say that I did start working out again today, it felt good. The thing that made me get started is my gut coming back, but as far as my 8's being tight, I just don't care enough to diet. Hopefully it'll come back soon. I'm soo into baking, and usually I get it out of the house before I down it all, and I use half the ammount of sugar in everything I make, and try to shove pumpkin, or squash or spinach or something healthy in our goodies, but still, not good for me. But I'm not going to NOT bake during baking season because I'm a little chubby. I wish I didn't feel this way, I know my girl Latitia isn't sitting at home baking and eatting...damn models!

back to the beginning....

2008-11-30T11:38:00.000-08:00

Hahaha, 162! Good stuff. Honestly I've eatten my body weight in food each day for the last week. And sadly, this weight gain didn't bug me at all! I think I'm where Staci was a couple of months ago. You just have everything else in your life going completely perfect, and you're soo happy with it all that you just don't care about your weight. That's where I am. Medicare checks FINALLY started coming in for the first time since my husband started his practice, so we did a lot more Christmas shopping than usual, the kids all managed to not get the flu that was going around here, the house is decorated Christmassy which totally puts me in the best mood, along with the Christmas tunes, it's my anniversary this week, I have a kid's pirate party to plan for the next week, which is again, my favorite thing to do, my hair is growing back in good, my kids are starting to get along better, my baby just wants me to cuddle him all day, which isprobably because I spent the last 9 months working out all day, and I have the best husband in the world. So yes, I'd love to be back in my 6's, but 8 is a size smaller than what I intended on ever hitting in the first place, so honestly, I'm happy, only about 10lbs smaller than my man, but still, smaller. I just really wanna keep this biggest loser thing going though, cause I do want to stay around 155 through the year. Anyway, I'm back to 0%...it was nice to be the winner for a week. Oh, but Monday is our running day...but not my dieting day...maybe next next week. haha!

2lbs!

2008-11-21T07:49:00.000-08:00

SO, I'm sure you all have noticed that I throw around this same 10lbs since Jamaica in August. And I throw it around extreme! I'm completely ok with 155, that puts me at 153 without my camera. My goal was to be 150 by Saturday for pics...obviously not going to happen. But can I tell you the lovely array of weight gaining food I've shoved down since the cleanse ended 2 days ago? about 12 oreos (haven't had an oreo all year long til now), 4 slices of sweet potatoe pie (including the one that I had for breakfast this morning...I've never had sweet potatoe pie befor eyesterday...SO GOOD!), about 10 ghirdelli candy cane chocolates, and of coarse, a drink of pumpkin spice egg nog (don't get it...stick with regular egg nog if you like egg nog). Anyway, I'm really surprised to be down those 2lbs, so I'm not complaining. And I'm with burgess, this is a crappy time of year to try and LOSE weight, my goal is to not hit 160 again this year! sorry about the blurry pic, I had to zoom in on PS and it added noise

Goals for the week...eat really good until Thursday, and don't think about the foods I'm eatting all day Thursday. I'm noticing that it is completely consuming my life to either be thinking about the foods I'm eatting in negative ways, or to feel major guilt after eatting them (like I am now about the sweet potatoe pie peice and the ghirdelli for breakfast...gag!)

For my friend Amy.

2008-11-20T07:15:00.000-08:00

Amy, you'll be happy to know...156 today and I've eatten ALL 20 of my WW points and it's 8am. hahaha! So 0 pt soup and salad all day, who thinks I can actually do it? haha! I think I've pretty much lost all motivation these last couple of days. I just don't care. Bad I know. I just wanna play all day and not work out and I wanna bake and cook all day like my friends on the Food Network instead of diet. bad, I KNOW!!!

Get it back to good...

2008-11-19T07:45:00.000-08:00

Ahh, seriously I'm not coming off of it the right way...it's harder than doing the fast. I ate some pancake this morning. According to the coming off of it diet, I shouldn't have breads til Sunday. ha! Anyways, you'll all be happy to know that I'm back up to 155! yea, that sucks, but I expected it, so that makes it not as bad. Now it's back to dieting. SO glad I did it though. Hopefully I can forget the suffering by Spring so I can do it again then...kinda like delivery...once you forget how sucky the being pregnant and delivery were, you want another one. ha!

Done....

2008-11-19T05:03:00.000-08:00

Alright, so yesterday i drank Fresh watered down OJ along with my lemonade drink, but then at dinner, I made potatoe soup, and I ate some of the potatoes and celery, which I'm thinking is ok, because today I woudl be able to eat rooted vegetables, just a few. I probably overdid it, but either way, that means I'm pretty much done. I just need to stick to fruits and veggies for a few days and drink the lemonade drink trhoughout the day, but yay, food! It kinda made me sick to eat those last night, but I'm sure it'll just be like that breaking into it again. Anyway, cleansed!

what an awesome day!

2008-11-18T07:16:00.000-08:00

So we decided last night that yesterday would be my last day of the pure lemonade because otherwise we'd have to buy another $35 bottle of syrup, and some more organic lemons, and we'd endup wasting half of the syrup unless I went a few more days, anyways, so today I get to drink some watered down OJ along with the lemonade drink! SEriously doesn't seem like much, but it's just soo nice to have a change!

Day 8

2008-11-17T12:04:00.000-08:00

Ok, so today is a LOT better than yesterday. Seriously yesterday was a "I hate everyone around me that is eatting the delicious food (that I made)" kind of day. Today, I think it's because I can see the light at the end of the tunnell, but things are better, I dont mind not eatting. Still can't wait for Thursday when I get some veggies, or even better next THursday when I'm going to pack on a few lbs with a major feast, but today is not bad. Kind of tired, not sure why, slept good, and slept from 10-4:30, wondering if it's a bit of dehydration from the constant cleanse. I keep tons o fwater going down, but I also keep tons going out. Seriously I pee or, um, otherwise every hour! Anyway, it's day 8 of 9!!!!!
Day 8 weight: 152
Day 8 exercise: accelerated pilates and walk

Day 7

2008-11-17T04:22:00.000-08:00

Alright, yesterday was day 7, and I felt done! We made apple pie filling and canned it and it was soo hard to not eat it. Then we made banana cookies with banana frosting with our old bananas for our SUnday school class, and I licked my finger out of instinct, and holy crap, that was heaven! I knew I should have quickly spit it out, but I didn't, I even made it last as long as I could. And I ate a fourth of a peacan, so sue me. blah!
I'm feeling fine, no more headaches, no hunger pains, no weakness. Just miss food really bad. My family had lasagna for lunch then my mom made some amazing chicken cheese brocoli casserole, which on normal days would probably seem average but the stuff smelled and looked like heaven, and I yelled at my little girl for not wanting to eat it. She even said before we ate and she was asking for a snack, "I haven't eatten anything for hours"...yes, she heard it for that. Anyway, I think I'm cleansed because, this is gross, but my poop isn't black. It's supposed to be black the cleanse said. And there were parts of black in it the first and second day, but now it's honestly just the lemonade going right through me. So I think I'm cleansed, but I'm going to finish up with the s yrup and lemons we have since they were so expensive. I've vowed to not cheat today or tomarrow though. WIsh me luck!

Day 6

2008-11-15T17:09:00.000-08:00

I cheated again! I had a bite of Jase subway and chewed it for a few seconds then spit it out, but you know some of it went down. blah! Anyway, today was FREAKING hard. I remember the weekends were the worst last time. WE went to Show Low to see Madagascar II and all the kids had their delicious boxes of candy, which I don't know why Jase let them get their own, he never does...plus he got reces peices and M&M's for himself and the dumb kid in front of us had an amazing smelling hot dog, plus all that damn popcorn! ANyway, needless to say, I'm at witt's end. I WANT FOOD! This cleanse is supposed to rid you of sweet cravings, but today I craved it all! I want pizza more than anything. I haven't had any since March and I want it really bad today. ANyway, no headaches, no weakness, and no fainting, so yay! Lots of grouchiness, complaining about no food, and very close to giving up. And I've been reading a lot about this cleanse, and it's recommended for 10-40 days, so I figured I'd do my 10 days, but I've read a lot about people that do it a few times a year and just do it for 4-7 days. So I'm doing 9 days, that way I can at least have a salad with our friends iN Flagstaff this Saturday. There is a 5 day "going off the fast diet" that I have to follow, but if I only do 9 days then Saturday will be day 3 of coming off the fast and I can have some fruit and salad that day...can't wait!

Day 5 (weigh in)

2008-11-14T08:24:00.000-08:00

Alright, day 5...it's only 9:30, but so far so good. Last night was hard because it was date night, and seirously any great date has food, so we ended up grocery shopping (which sucks) and looking at new cards, and checking out our local crap store for the holiday deals. Kinda fun...oh, then we came back home and spyed on our babysitter who had her boy over. haha! ANyway, the drink is getting old, but so is the craving food, so that's good. I didn't lose any weight between yesterday and today and my big ole lug of a camera really does weigh 2 and a half pounds...so for the official weigh in, since i was holding a camera for the first one, I'm sticking with 157 for that...but for my cleanse weight, since i haven't been holding a camera for my daily weigh ins, I'm sticking with 155. Day 5 weight: 155
Exercise: Acclerated Pialtes, and something else just not sure yet.

Oh, and Ali, seriously this is not a cleanse to lose weight. REmember last time I didn't lose a pound...I lost 7 in the first few days but put it back on before Ie ven started eatting again? It is great for infertility which I haven't struggled with yet, but I'm doing it strictly for colon health because mine sucks since the wreck a few years ago and I want to fix it before we get pregnant next year. BUT I do know a great cleanse that is a bit cheaper for weight loss...it's 3 weeks, but it's not as strict as this one. This one is about $200 for the 10 days...if you do organic like you're supposed to. But google the Standard Process SP cleanse. I did it last year and lost 15lbs and it stayed off even when I went back to crappy eatting. I want to do it again early next year. You get food, but you have to chose between about 8 weird veggetables. I didn't like many of the choices so I honestly ate asparagus, brocoli and spring greens every single day. But you also get a gross protien shake so you don't feel hungry like you do on this one. Anyway, hopefully this will clean up my colon and make it easier for me to lose weight. This is gross, but w/o "assistance of my husband working on me everyday", I only go once every 2 weeks, so it's impossible to drop weight, and I know that was TMI and really gross, but just telling you all why I'm doing this cleanse. Everyone thinks it's a crazy crash diet and I need to seek help, well, not everyone, I have quite a few friends that do it a couple times a year I'm finding out. blah! ANyway, good job everyone on the major weight loss, holy crap! Keep it up!

Day 4

2008-11-13T16:40:00.001-08:00

I wanted food soo badly today. I ate a pecan. I know! NO WILL POWER, and to waste it on a pecan instead of a chunk of chocolate! Anyway, hopefully it didn't mess up the whole thing. The salt water oral enima was SUPER gaggy this morning, but I got it down. Amazingly I'm still not drained. The last time I did it I was dragging the whole time. I don't have extra energy, just normal. Tomarrow will be my halfway day! yay!!! Oh, and thanks for your concern everyone about infertility, enimia and rectal issues, but I've done lots of research on this cleanse, and done it before and know tons that have done it and LOVED it, so I think I'm safe. In fact, this cleanse is suggested by doctors to increase fertility! I had no idea, so maybe I can get pregnant without the help of Jase!! ?? ANyway, things are going good, I just miss food...A LOT! I'm baking a lasagna right now and it smells sooo good! Luckily Jase is taking me out of the house tonight!
Weight: 155
Exercise: accelerated pilates, turbo jam turbo sculpt

Day 3

2008-11-12T10:38:00.000-08:00

Today I'm hungry. My stomach hurts because I'm hungry, but on the flip flop, I'm not really craving anything, I'm ok with the drink. So kinda opposite of yesterday. And headahes for the first day or two are normal, haven't had any today, but I was having them in the afternoons on the first two days and it's only 11:30am. I'm still not tired, a bit grouchy, but it's hard for me to tell if that's any different from any other day.
Day 3 weight: 157
Exercise: Accelerated Pilates & 2 mile walk
I didn't do the salt water oral enima today, wondering if that's why my weight went up? Causer seriously, this cleanse isn't starving..it is fasting, but it's more calories that I was eatting in food before...and the last time I did it I lost 7lbs in the first 3 days, maintained, and then before I even started eatting food again, I gained back the 7lbs, so I'm not expecting to lose a lot of weight, if any with this, but I do remember it got me eatting right afterwards because I didn't want to junk up my body after cleansing it so well. ANyway, that's day 3.

Day 2

2008-11-11T14:55:00.000-08:00

Not much different from day one....a bit of growling in the stomach in the morning, and cleansing in the morning, and then just craving food, but not hungry through the rest of the day, and it's 4pm and I'm not super tired...yay!
Day 2 weight: 156
Workout: Accelerated Pilates and walking Walmart for a few hours, hahaha!

Pre Lemon Cleanse...

2008-11-10T14:13:00.002-08:00

Ok, so I read up on the lemon cleanse to read about it's weight loss benifits and seems Beyonce lost a bit of weight, and then some other girls that tried it said they lost in their gut, which you all know is my biggest vice! So here's my befores...don't gag...you've seen me at my worst already, and to the new girls...sorry, it's gross, an dyes, my stretch marks get worse the lower you look...that's why my bikinis all had high bottoms. blah! oh, and I was on the phone with my camera place...on hold, that's why one arm is up in all of them...haha!

13 days to go...

2008-11-10T13:27:00.000-08:00

So I started the Master Cleanse today.....in hopes that it'll help with my digestion a little better than it did last time. If it doesn't, I'm ordering the Standard Process cleanse because I've gotta get things going. ANyway, I just figured if I kept track of hwo I feel each day, I'll better notice the changes in my energy, and digestion and weight.
Day 1: started the day with the oral salt enima (2t very fine sea salt with 1Q of water) and it cleaned me out within half an hour...I had to go to the bathroom 4x in one hour. And the cleanse claims that the enima will clean out your colon from top to bottom so that the lemonade drink can start cleansing the walls of the colon.
I've had about 6 glasses (8oz) of the lemonade drink and it's 2:30. You're supposed to drink 8z every 1-2 hours. I don't really miss food, but my stomach is growling, so I guess I'm hungry, just not craving yet. I'm tired...super tired. But that could be from the crazy weekend. I do have a slight headache, and I'm NOT a headache girl, but I'ms ure that's just a little part of the detoxing. So far, so good. Oh, and I decided to do 14 days instead of 10 this time, just to ensure that the job is done so I don't have to do it again til after I have my next baby. I weighed 162 this morning
Workout - Accelerated Pilates and a 2 mile walk

what the....

2008-11-07T06:02:00.000-08:00

Ok, so this morning before aerobics I weighed 159...and now that I took the picture for the blog I went up to 162...hoping it's some major muscles from aeorbics (haha) or the water I drank during and before, because that was only 2 hours ago. BLAHHHH!!!! And yea, my flash is broken, so sorry it's blurry, and I'll be without a camera for the next 4 weeks while it's in being cleaned and fixed, so can you all trust me?

No good....

2008-10-29T11:27:00.000-07:00

What is it with me and the last week of these compeitions?! I imagine myself kicking butt and losing like 5lbs or something, and I only lost TWO?! Are you kidding? Yesterday I only had celery, broth, watermelon, one protien shake in the morning and water. blah! One freaking pound away from my 10% and not enough to get me into the top 3 either...blah!

ANyway, my main focus was getting back into my 8's, which I did, and getting a tone stomach...which I didn't. It got a bit smaller, but still jiggly. My other focus was on my arms, which I do like...I"ll have to take a pic. They still are Madonnaish, but I have a line, so that's good enough for me. And I'm like Kathy, I ate a bowl of cereal in celebration of finally being done. But I'm not going to my fav Italian resturant tonight. I figured since I haven't eatten a real meal in weeks, that subway would even hit the spot tonight, so we're sneaking subway into the movies. yay!! food for a week! Here are my before and afters....not much different, I know.

I'd like to hit 150 and maintain and not go above 155 through the holidays. Thanks so much for the motivation ladies...see ya in a week!!!!

Crazy Exercise Lady....

2008-10-13T07:47:00.000-07:00

So, my family and some friends, and some townspeople know of me as the crazy exercise lady. I seriously love it. I only wish I loved dieting this much...that' smy downfall, so if anyone wants to come tutor me for a day on dieting, I'll be your BFF (yes, I just said BFF). Just thought I'd share some pictures of how ugly I can get when I work out. This morning Jase set his alarm for 4:45 to go play raquetball, and that usually gives me 15 minutes to ge tup before I have to go teach aerobics at the church, but he didn't get out of bed, so I didn't think about it. LUckily, no aerobics on Columbus day, but I knew I had to do a couple videos since it's Monday (monday and tuesday are my push it days). So I rolled out of bed, made the kids and Jase cinnamon crepes with peaches and creme (proud to say I didn't even lick a finger!), then started my video. And yes, that's a long sleeved shirt over a short sleeved shirt with some awesome leg warmers (thanks burgess) over knee high socks. It's freakin freezing here. Anyway, just thought I'd share these ugly pictures. For even uglier pictures, go to my family blog tomarrow...I'm sharring my ugly outfits of the week pictures. Oh, and the things hanging from the ceiling are just tissue paper pompoms I made for my halloween bunco night on Thursday. Theyre' freaking awesome though and I think I'm going ot make Christmas ones for Christmas. It looks like a party in here all the time! Oh, and SHeree, I think since I shared the ugliest possible pictures of myself right now, you can share whatever pictures you have of your skinny self to help motivate the rest of us...come on!!! Oh, and if you click on the pictures to make it bigger, you can actually see my awesome balding spots!!!!

content....

2008-07-30T07:26:00.000-07:00

So, I REALLY think having a tan helps a ton, but I really do feel much more confident about weating my bikinis now. I am sad that it will only be for one week since I have a little girl, but maybe if I keep them, it'll be motivation to stay small, maybe Jase and I will take a hot trip to Scottsdale one of these days and I'll use em again. Anyway, here are my befores and afters.... Yes, the glasses are kinda scary, and yes I miss my long hair soo badly now...how hot would that be? Aww well. Um, notice my extra skin on my gut is tightening! I didn't believe Jase a month or so ago when I was complaining to him about how it won't ever tighten up, he said it just takes a long time since it took so long to stretch. And of coarse the stretch marks are a permanent. The stretch mark cream worked a tiny bit, but they're still bad...and clear around my back. If you click on the picture to see it full size...please fail to notice the bikini line bumps...they're getting better...but anyway, I'm feeling much better about wearing the bikinis. The one that I am wearing in the before picture is kinda sad on top. I don't fill it out anymore, but the bottoms look fine. I just got 2 new bikinis (the one below) that have underwire to make em loook a little bigger and perkier....yay!
Final stats:

Beginning size 12
Ending size 8, some 6's!
Beginning weight 169
Ending weight 149
Beginning bra size DD
Ending bra size B :(
Beginning shirt size L
Ending shirt size S
Beginning...bigger than husband
Ending...SMALLER!

WHY I NEED to WIN this thing!

2008-07-20T15:49:00.000-07:00

I told Jase that if I EVER look like this again, LEAVE ME! And we can't have that happen. So I need $240 to get me some hot clothes to look hot in to keep me little! Can you believe this? Most of you knew me...why didn't you tell me it was this bad? I'm half the picture!!!!

In all my glory.....

2008-07-18T12:51:00.000-07:00

I finally found a picture of me at my biggest. Size 18. 255lbs....NOT PREGNANT!The sad thing is...I had boobs then, and I think I have the face for a chubbier girl. I felt a LOT prettier back then....even last year....I just felt big.

Swimming Suit Motivator......

2008-07-17T07:11:00.000-07:00

Alright, Nat sent me her pictures of her swimming suits for her trip, and she LOOKS HOT! I realized nothing depresses me more and makes me want to not eat more than seeing pictures of myself in a swimming suit. So I figured to really work hard these last 2 weeks I'd post pics of me in all of my swimming suits for Jamica, because if I looke like this is 5 weeks...wait, 4 weeks and 6 days in these suits...I'll have to buy all new suits beacuse I WILL NOT wear them looking like this.....notice my boobs are SO much smaller and less sexy in this first suit. oh, and yes, I know the stretch marks will be there no matter what. And I found a way to help SOME of the hang over on this suit..just pull the black part up higher.

Doesn't my body look like a softball players body in this one? I MISS MY BOOBS! But I love this angle, my lower abs don't look as gross as they really do.
Ha, isn't that hilarious that I thought I'd want to cover up my LEGS when my stomach looks like this....
Ok, and there's a story with this bikini. It was the first one I ever bought. It was my junior year of HS and it was on my girl Latetia in the VS catalog, which of coarse she made it look extremely hot. This is the first time my boobs haven't poured out of the top. It's the Body by VS bikini so it's supposed to look like a second skin....maybe in 10 more lbs?
Oh, and I apologize for the extreme white. I haven't been able to tan my stomach or upper thighs because of the stretch mark cream I was using. For my final after picture I will tan though.
Ahhh, this is the cover up I need...cover those lower abs and nasty stretch marks!

I once looked great in this suit...when the boobs were C's and higher. WAHHH!!!
But I still LOVE the back.
These are the brown bottoms that I have no top to. I'm waiting to see if I need to get a tankini top or if I can get a bikini top to go with them.
And this is the cover up that I'll be wearing about um, 75% of the time in Jamaica.

And the swimming suit that I'll probably wear half of the time. Wow, I look like I hstill have boobs in this shot.

Again, a suit from the far past that used to look amazing on me. Damn stretch marks!

Ahhh, now this suit looks good....
TEN POUNDS IN FIVE WEEKS!!! EASY!!!!!

Exciting info...

2008-07-15T14:38:00.000-07:00

ok, maybe only to me. But I'm NOT a sweater and it makes me mad, because I know it's a good way to lose weight and get rid of toxins, but I work out and workout and nothing...UNTIL TODAY! I was sweating all over. The house is just soo hot and humid today (raining) and I even had fans on me, but when I was all done, I put my hand on my waist (I only wear a sports bra and my yoga pants when I work out) and it was super soaking wet!!!! then I noticed my neck was dripping and there was a mini pool between my ever shrinking sagging boobs!!! yay for sweat!!!!

HA ha ha ha!!!

2008-07-15T06:45:00.000-07:00

Um, ok, so I typed in 5'10" 140lbs and this is what came up....

I'm thinking neither the boobs NOR the "she" is real. That's gotta be a guy with implants right? Um, and yea, I'll never have those abs. But still I'm SOO glad to be at 150! That's my lowest grown up weight. That's what I weighed when we were engaged and then again when I was first pregnant with Jaden. (I was down 10lbs from my usual 160 from morning sickness). So yay!!! 10 more and I think I MIGHT be ok in my bikini. It's still not looking good though....too much hang over on the bottoms...gross! It's like Sheree said, even though I'm at my lowest weight, I still feel fat. My 29's aren't tight anymore, but my thighs still jiggle and I still have that hang over on my 2 peice. In the meantime my shoulders and arms are getting to the point that I almost like them. Anyway, 150! yay!

Let's do it....

2008-07-09T13:25:00.000-07:00

K, I knew these last few weeks I'd push it, but I'm seriously pushing it! I want to hit 140! I'm sticking to my diet to a TEE! and I just got turbo jam so I'm doubling my workout. I'm doing 2 ab workouts plus Cindy Crawfords stregnth training in the mornings (an hour and 15 minutes) then during th ekids nap every day 45 minutes of turbo jam and the extra 18 minute ab workout if there's time. And the nights that it's possible, family walks...3 mile. No eatting after 6, only 65 calories worth of sweets a day, and only one hour at the computer a day! So it's kinda bugged me when some of you girls have said that you're going to win, but um, I"M GOING TO WIN!!!!

4 Reasons I like losing weight...

2008-07-07T07:06:00.000-07:00

So my goofy poses look more fun than fat..... So I can look like I am a good match with Jase.....
So I can be the fun skinny aunt!....(and tall I guess)
Because I don't want to hide behind the camera forever when I have kids this cute to take pictures with!....
So, South Beach seems to be working again. I even totally screwed it up on Saturday. I hit 152 Friday morning, and then Saturday I went nuts. We always go to Heber to my dream house for the fireworks and have a huge BBQ with about 100 people and the desserts were amazing. I was busy taking pictures so I hit the last end of dinner, and that's about all that was left was dessserts. So I tried one...then two...then three, and by the nights end, I'm not kidding you, I had about 6 desserts! STUPID STUPID STUPID! I had so much guilt yesterday that I did awesome...and fast sunday always helps...ha! I really want to get below 150 by next week so I'm not going anywhere, and making Jase help me at Kam's party not to touch the cake and ice cream. I usually do ok with that. It's stupid brownies and marshmellowy lemony cool whippy salads...blah! I want to get in 2 hours of exercise a day 5-6 days a week for the rest of the month too. Then I'll take a week off and go crazy again right before our trip. K, I'm off for a walk!

Aww crap!

2008-07-02T10:13:00.000-07:00

I know one week shouldn't make a bit of difference at the rate I have been losing weight, but I thought I had 8 weeks til Jamaica, and I just recalculated...7 weeks to go from this to this.... The tan, I can't work on for a couple of weeks because of the stretch mark cream I'm using, and of coarse I can't get my hair back to that long before then, but the thighs and abs, I'm gunna do it! Seriously!!! How many of you would be game to keep going through the fall? Maybe until October 1st??? Start a new pot? I need it!

Anyway, if I can hit 140 by our trip, I'm getting myself a cute nautical high waisted bikini...with major underwire.

South Beach update. No sugar isn't bugging me at all. The limited nuts is bugging me. That's the one snack I love on SB and I just read to keep it to one serving for the first two weeks. It's been hard!!! And I know I shouldn't get excited since my weight fluctuates like a cow, but I hit 153 again this morning!!!! I've been trying to do more workouts...for the past couple of weeks I've just been doing an hour, and I'm trying to go on 2 mile walks everyday, I know it's not far, but pushing 3 kids = 100lbs in a jogger helps add resistance. I'm LOVING being on SB again though. It's nice to be able to eat meat, cheese and dairy w/o having it count for a million points. I can't wait to bring fruit into the diet in 2 weeks. Oh, and I LOVE that it's making me up my veggie intake. I sucked at eatting veggies on WW. Anyway, we'll see how it goes. I lost 35 in 3 months on it after Kam, I just need 15 in a month and a half...ha! I'd be happy with 10.